sunday, october 14   2001
it has been awhile.  a long while actually.  anyone who has read my journal much (yes, this is a rare entry aimed at those who actually read this thing) knows that over the last little while things haven't been normal.  except for the recent rony episode, i've not been myself.  i'm usually more introspective of my life and the events that are taking place.  i usually write more verse.  my entries haven't been very deep.  i've been through a lot with blu over the last few weeks.  i don't write about it because it would be, like the rest of my journal, very much my inner thoughts.  that is stuff that i sometimes don't want blu to have to see.  so i don't write much.
i'll keep up with the little, "went to work today : ) " entries as much as i can.  things will be in order again.  that 'one day'... it is coming soon i think.

now back to regular programing : )

dude... i just want to make it clear, because i haven't written much about this whole terrorism thing... i mentioned that i didn't think bush was capable of dealing with this.  well i have seen things pan out over the last month and i think i was right.  he seems to be handling the military part pretty well (yea... i can imagine.  does he even know were afghanistan is?  i'm sure it has to do with the veep and sec. of state).  but he is not doing very well at all on the home front.  there is no reason i see for people to still have the fear we have.  he can and should do more.  he just isn't a leader.  when fdr spoke after pearl harbor, people felt great about america, but more importantly i think, they felt capable.  capable of dealing with the threat, but also with the fear.  it was in no small part to the leadership of fdr.  leadership that bush just does not have.  ok enough about the terrorism.  it is an awful tragedy, but i'm tired of hearing about it every day.  stop paying lip service to "moving on" and do it.
 

Friday, october 5   2001
blu said i might have been a little harsh on rony... i probably was.  i was just trying to let things go.  i guess things just weren't as i assumed they were.

i get to work all weekend this week... woo hoo :-(  my boss is out of town for the weekend, so guess who is in charge... yea.  oh well, it means a little extra money.  i was hoping to go home this weekend, but i've got an appointment on one of the days so i don't think i'll make it.  maybe next weekend.
if i can, i'm going to go check at this job fair today.  i hope that works out.
i watched "serendipity" last night.  it was a nice movie.  i really liked it.
a pretty boring day, but hey, it has only been three days!  i'm doing better :-)
 

tuesday, october 2  2001
i can't remember when the last time i wrote a journal entry in the middle of the afternoon.  i just felt like writing before work i guess.  fun!
'm' comes home some time today.  this evening i think.  maybe i'll get a call from him at work tonight, woo hoo!  i hope he had a lot of fun.  i've wanted to come up with a nick name for him.  i think i have it... blu.  there is this song that i just love, "never seen blue like that".  it is an amazing song that makes me think of 'm' every time.  i would write out some of the words, but the cd is in my car.  so... anyway, i love blu... oh, and one of my favorite pictures of him is when he had blue hair : )
two things are on my mind these days, getting a better job and blu.  i love blu.
: )
i must eat (blu does not like it when i don't eat right...) and get ready for work.
more later!
and maybe even an update on this page...