sunday, november 19   2000
oh my dear god in heaven!
i had showtime turned on tonight... my vain attempt to get it turned on before the press starts on "queer as folk" and my parents maybe get a clue.
well, i'm sitting her watching a special, "is america ready for queer as folk"... ohmigod!
this show... ohmigod!
i can't even wait!  sunday, december 3 at 10:00pm.  i'm asking off of work.  maybe i can even get my parents out of the house and have a party!  ohmigod this show!

and this show... it fits really well with where i'm at right now.  it has been a year.  i've learned a lot.  i've come to terms.  there are things i don't like about life right now, but i'm in control and i'll be happy because i said i am going to make myself happy!
this is just the type of show to excite me, move me to the next step.  hey, maybe one day, all of a sudden i'll right you and say i've come out to my parents!  lol, no, i doubt that :-)
oh my... i'm just... wow, this show...  woo hoo!

read this from showtimes web page!

Based on the British smash-hit series, QUEER AS FOLK revolves around three characters caught in a highly intriguing triangle: the selfish, ever-hot BRIAN, desperate at turning 30, finds himself focused on two other people for once in his life: his sperm-donated newborn son and JUSTIN, a one-night-stand who becomes obsessively smitten over his first real lover.The mild-mannered MICHAEL, Brian's lifelong friend is caught between grooming Brian for fatherhood and raging at his latest indiscretion. Like everyone else, Michael wants Brian— but he'd be the last to admit it. From diners to discos to the far reaches of the heart, QUEER AS FOLK mines the soul of a world ascompelling as it is real.
Showtime is honored to continue its tradition of presenting provocative entertainment with the outrageous new weekly series, QUEER AS FOLK beginning Sunday, December 3rd. Until then, queer.SHO.com is your source for all Queer As Folk information.
 
 
 

tuesday, november 15   2000
"Gabriel said, "if we win the war, we can start a whole new world.""
so we shall... so we shall.

so those against us appear to win.  they appear to be stronger, better prepared and more willing.  they appear ready to take my people.
we have made great strides.  if we turn back now, walk from our responsibility, we shall never know our destiny.
so much easier it would be to walk away, but where would that leave us?  what would it mean to all of my people who have already given so much in this fight?
i shall stay and fight... and lead if it comes to that.  this it seems, is my destiny.
 
 

sunday, november 5  2000
i watched the growing pains reunion movie tonight.  my boss told me that there would be one, and i just happened to flip to nick at night when one of the old shows was on with a little runner talking about the movie, which just happened to start in two minutes.  how lucky.
one of my teen crushes... kirk cameron.  wow... i remember sneaking into my sisters room and staring at the poster of him.  he is so cute.  he still is... he just looks older.  it was fun watching, reliving old memories.
i've done so much of that lately.  maybe i can't go on until i free my memories from the density of lies they have lived in for so very long.